"Nägin kummitust" / "Saw a Ghost" Marita Liivak

Marita Liivak

Acrylic and marker on canvasboard

Akrüül ja marker lõuendiplaadil

50x40cm

“Graduating high-school was an intense period. In addition to having my school tasks, my mother was also going through a divorce. My step-father wasn’t violent, but he was so repulsive to me that I had decided to act as if he did not exist.

He didn’t grant my mother divorce easily. That also began emotional terror that didn’t end even after the divorce was finalized. He didn’t want to leave and that feeling started to haunt me. In my nightmares, I always saw him in my periphery, getting slowly closer. In one nightmare he got so close to me that I yelled through my sleep “What is this?!” and woke up the person sleeping next to me.

After that, I didn’t see him in my nightmares any longer, but one day, walking home from school, I saw him near my house. I do not know why he was there or what he was doing near my home, but I quickly ran inside and locked all the doors. Next he appeared uninvited to my graduation. Suddenly the nightmare was real.”